merch schmerch

I said I was taking a break from VMK to focus creating merchandise. I wanted to try and sell t-shirts and mugs and DVDs and crazy straws and hoodies and all of that noise. I hired designers and created logos and came up with an iPhone app that allowed you to care for your own little MK tamagotchi. I had big dreams for all of it. And it was going very well until we reached out to the Olsen camp and they said stop or we'll sue. So we stopped and that was that. No crazy straws.

This was disappointing for me. I felt like I let people down. I walked around my apartment for a while feeling like an ass.

I thought about why I wanted to sell merch in the first place. One of the main reasons was because I felt like the success of the series just wasn't enough. You see I have this teensy leettle habit of equating my net worth with my self worth, and with that kind of thinking nothing is ever enough, not even a buh'jillion facebook likes. Then I remembered why I started working on the series in the first place. The answer is because I genuinely enjoy the work. So I got back to work.

We made season 4 and we started releasing episodes 2 weeks ago and I am very proud of it. This season is hilarious and weird and bigger and great and different and we're trying new things because why not try new things, right?

And even though I will never be a buh'jillionaire from selling VMK crazy straws, I still think I cashed in, big-time, because I get to work on something that I love with people that I love. If that's not cashing in, I don't know what is.

This blog post has been an exercise in vulnerability and honesty from resident non-perfect human person, Elaine Carroll. Okay, back to cat pics...